PS5 but no TV

 The struggle is real, having a brand new, still in the box unopened, PlayStation 5 that I can't play, because we don't own a TV. My brother gave me the console for my Christmas present, and we had our family holiday early since my sister works in nursing and has to work on the 25th. He stood in line for 8 hours to get it for us, and as much as I appreciate it, and want it, I also am struggling to wait for it. I keep dreaming about playing Final Fantasy 7 Remake, which is one of the games he got me for it. I don't want to spoil it for myself too far, because I watched a lot of reviews for it when it first came out and did accidently spoil some of it for myself, so I am trying to just wait.

We did order a TV once we found out what our present was, even though we were going to wait another month to get one because we were trying to let savings recover from moving this summer, but oh well. Now it is just the anticipation killing me, for when the TV arrives and we can finally hook up our system and start playing games. The excitement for the feel of a controller in my hand instead of just a mouse and keyboard. The graphics and the games that run in line with games I loved and adored on the PlayStation 1 and 2 back in the day. RPGs, Strategy games, and open world games. 

My brother got us a year sub to the PlayStation store and 3 games, the PS5 version, with the Yufie DLC, Final Fantasy 7 Remake, as mentioned before, and then Brigandine 2, which I am also crazy excited for, considering the first Brigandine was one of my all time favorite strategy games, and then Immortals Fenyx Rising, which I don't know so much about. Maybe I will go watch a review for it or something, so I can try to get my mind off of FF7 Remake...

It is all made worse because we have all got colds in our home, and no it isn't covid, we got tested, even besides that we are all vaccinated and boostered, but being stuck tired and laying around all day anyway just makes it worse that we could be taking turns playing games on our unopened PS5... 

The Television will get here, and then the bliss will begin. I just have to be patient a little longer... Until then, I guess I will just keep having dreams about playing, and do my dailies on GW2 and ESO, while wishfully sighing. 

League of Legends Ticket...

  So, my LoL ticket has been sitting there almost a full month with no response of any kind, but still completely open, just, nothing from any gm or tech. I may actually never get to play my League of Legends account again. I wrote a mssg today to them saying as much, and will see if there is some kind of reply from that, but honestly, I am coming to terms with the fact that they will prob not give me back my account, they don't really care, and that I am screwed :( Sucks.

What My Brother Did!

1. Today was our family Christmas
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   SOOOOO guess what? My brother went all out cuz he just got the last check for selling his business at the start of December, so for Christmas, he got all his family like, major gifts. He got our tiny family, for instance, a PS5 and 3 games and a year sub to the PlayStation subscription. But he also got me like, super trans supportive gifts, like, my wallet is 20 years old, so he got me a fancy leather one, and then he got me a ball cap and t shirt of my fave book series for guys, plus some arm weights!
3. But the best present, he got me a piece of art made in France custom for me, of how he thought of me, and it is me, as a Cloud Strife, carrying a massive sword, with my back out like I am carrying a burden I am shedding, and he wrote me this really touching letter to go with it, about how Cloud felt so ashamed for trying to be a SOLDIER, but that he ended up the hero who saved the world and he wasn't wrong to believe himself what he was, but he also never would have gotten past the guilt without accepting himself and supportive people who loved him, and being so brave and not giving up. He wrote that I inspire him and he is so proud of me and to know me and that having me for his big brother is a dream come true and how brave he thinks I am, and how wrong everyone else was about me and how right I was the whole time to pursue me, and how he is grateful I am a male role model for his sons and stuff. Like I cried. And then I re read it and cried again.
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   I don't usually write personal things here, or most anywhere, but I couldn't help but post how awesome he is, and how good and touched he made me feel in my heart.

5.  I just wanted to say how happy I am, and grateful for such a supportive brother, cuz none of my other brothers support me. I was completely blown away by all the support and love and he cried too when I was reading it and told me how invested he was in my transition and how glad he was that I was transitioning and pursing my happiness, no matter what the rest of most of my family thinks, cuz I was disowned by almost all of them.  

    

   It just meant so much.

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